Apr 13, 2010
2, 3 dpo - fatigue, cramping
3, 4, 5, 6, 7 dpo - diarrhea
1-8 dpo - vivid dreams
4 dpo - sore nipples, 2 big globs of ewcm
ears keep hurting randomly
5,6 dpo - twinges in lower tummy
4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 dpo - nausea
6 dpo - cm check - tiny bit of creamy pink cm
8,9 dpo - boobs hurt a little bit on the sides
10 dpo - BFP!!!! It's light...but there
12 dpo - BFP again...getting darker
So, now that I know these symptoms weren't in my head, I will make this journal public instead of private.
And oh so many mixed emotions right now. Part of me wants to be excited, but the other part of me is so afraid to get excited because I fear I will miscarry AGAIN. I can only hope and pray that this time is sticky. I'm not even telling DH because I am afraid that he is going to get to the point where he says no more because he can't stand seeing me go through it. I will tell him when I see a heartbeat. Knowing him though, he'll figure me out before then. I love the fact that I'm super fertile, but it is so frustrating that I can't stay pregnant. I can't imagine the frustration for women who have a hard time getting pregnant, but for those of us with recurrent losses, I think it is just as frustrating. I do, THANK GOD, have 2 beautiful sons and an amazing step daughter, but DH and I don't have any together, and I would soooo love to have one together. I really hope this time is going to be different. Only time will tell.