What I am beginning to learn more than I have ever in my life to this date is what the meaning of having a positive influence can have upon others, just through your mannerisms, speech, character perception. Sounds simple enough for someone to want to be precieved as a positive person, yet when addiction takes over, at least for me, I was quite to the contrary everything but positive.
But now, today and in the past two weeks I am seeing changes, noticeable to myself, of traits that I have longed possesed, but sort of put on a bookshelf, gathering dust through time, until the day came that I blew the dust off, rather at first accidentally, but now, intentionally. It is not that I want to shine like a freshly washed vehicle, or polished gold, but I feel positive, and the result of this feeling is what others give back through seeing positivity coming from me.
As to take no credit, for their is none, it is God's gift or mercy and grace, and I must remember that it is choosing to allow me to feel, and experience life as I am doing each day...I am grateful.
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