Heading in the wrong direction..
Jul 22, 2008 11:35PM
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I sit here and wonder why I even bother with these message boards...no offense to anyone, you have all been great. The thing is I really don't have much to say.
I have to face that I am a completely different person now and I DON"T LIKE IT. I have been through so many meds, not taking meds, therapy, I just don't know how much more I have in me. I know I am taking way to many xanax. I don't know if I'll tell the dr or not. Sometimes he helps me adjust other times it an "oh well" type feeling I get from him. Don't get me wrong he's a great dr, but sometimes I am just so aggravated with him.
Also, as juvenile as this is, I am very upset with my daughter. Her best friends mom, Vicki could never do anything wrong. Vicki this and Vicki that. Well I have 3 children, Vicki has 1 of course everything is going to go to the only child. Now my dd has a boyfriend and its Judy this and Judy that and Vicki this and Vicki that.....I CAN"T TAKE IT ANYMORE!! Something set me off today..my dd is 16 1/2 , and Judy (boyfriends mom) wants to bring my dd to go get their nails done. That was something me and MY daughter did. Lately I have been "sick" alot and can't really go, but it hurts so bad that she would go with her and not me. My daughter is a wonderful kid, I love that girl so much. She just doesn't realize how much she hurts me even though I have told her a million times.
Hee, guess I had more to say then I thought..I could go on, but I won't bore you all. Gonna go look around for a while.
Hope everything is going well for you all
Alley
I have to face that I am a completely different person now and I DON"T LIKE IT. I have been through so many meds, not taking meds, therapy, I just don't know how much more I have in me. I know I am taking way to many xanax. I don't know if I'll tell the dr or not. Sometimes he helps me adjust other times it an "oh well" type feeling I get from him. Don't get me wrong he's a great dr, but sometimes I am just so aggravated with him.
Also, as juvenile as this is, I am very upset with my daughter. Her best friends mom, Vicki could never do anything wrong. Vicki this and Vicki that. Well I have 3 children, Vicki has 1 of course everything is going to go to the only child. Now my dd has a boyfriend and its Judy this and Judy that and Vicki this and Vicki that.....I CAN"T TAKE IT ANYMORE!! Something set me off today..my dd is 16 1/2 , and Judy (boyfriends mom) wants to bring my dd to go get their nails done. That was something me and MY daughter did. Lately I have been "sick" alot and can't really go, but it hurts so bad that she would go with her and not me. My daughter is a wonderful kid, I love that girl so much. She just doesn't realize how much she hurts me even though I have told her a million times.
Hee, guess I had more to say then I thought..I could go on, but I won't bore you all. Gonna go look around for a while.
Hope everything is going well for you all
Alley
Alley,
I have 3 teenage daughters 14, 16, and 18 and they have the ability to rip your heart out and they never know. I am very close to mine and since they started driving it seems that they are all slipping a little further away. Someone else's parent's are always better but as I tell them....I pay for your cell phone. lol
Seriously though, I can tell you that the xanax thing will mess you up. My doctor gave them because I don't want to be on a long term anti-depressant but he specifically said to not ever take them for more than 3 days in a row. I am then to skip a couple of days. The are addictive and are mood altering because of it. I have a friend who actually had to go to rehab to gradually be taken off of them. I was never one to get much from therapists because I felt like they caused me to dwell on my trauma so what worked for me is working. I guess everyone has their thing to "get by." Mine is my job. I am feeling better now but I will tell you just in case you haven't done this to get labs done. I did mine and found out that I was severely deficient in vitamin B12 and anemic. I got those up and rarely, if ever, do I have any major issues now.
Take Care of yourself.
I have 3 teenage daughters 14, 16, and 18 and they have the ability to rip your heart out and they never know. I am very close to mine and since they started driving it seems that they are all slipping a little further away. Someone else's parent's are always better but as I tell them....I pay for your cell phone. lol
Seriously though, I can tell you that the xanax thing will mess you up. My doctor gave them because I don't want to be on a long term anti-depressant but he specifically said to not ever take them for more than 3 days in a row. I am then to skip a couple of days. The are addictive and are mood altering because of it. I have a friend who actually had to go to rehab to gradually be taken off of them. I was never one to get much from therapists because I felt like they caused me to dwell on my trauma so what worked for me is working. I guess everyone has their thing to "get by." Mine is my job. I am feeling better now but I will tell you just in case you haven't done this to get labs done. I did mine and found out that I was severely deficient in vitamin B12 and anemic. I got those up and rarely, if ever, do I have any major issues now.
Take Care of yourself.
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