A Little about me and to give others some encouragement.....

How did I wind up here and how did I make it this far???
I've found myself in a "sticky situation" as I came to realize that I was in so much denial....denial of use, denial of putting my children 2nd (after my dependency of using), denial of my "friends" pushing me, the denial of my life slipping right through my hands and the denial of the suggestions and suspicions (thank you Myspace :)) that the evidence was clear; my husband, who I had depended on as my confidant and my beacon for the last 13years, was indeed, cheating on me...broke my trust with another woman (or 2 or 3, lol)....yes, he was unhappy, I was unhappy and the using didn't help...he filed....the day the world came crashing down...but I'm here now to say that was the best day of my life since my youngest came into this world with a huge smile.
It's been 18 months since the split. I've moved to a little quaint community not far from my work and moved in with my sister, who I never thought would reach a hand to me, but she did and she's helped me with the little ones.
I'm here and have made some monumental changes in my life and my children's lives as well.....moving out of the marital home....changing school districts....my children will be latchkey kids this fall as I finish my degree....major down sizing....my children think the world of thier father and I did not want to go away and tarnish thier relationship...but I had to (leaving, not tarnishing) do it & I did it, without looking back.....things are so much better for them now.
It's been 27 days since I've used anything....the worse is when I go to work and have to resist the temptation to go out to the stairs and have a smoke, pop some pills with the ladies. The temptation is there constantly but I have resisted and had to burn soem bridges in doing so, saving myself, I dont' care for the others right now, afterall its my life, not thiers. I've had the worse feelings and the best feelings. Today I have a good feeling. If I can do this, other people can too. Only the strong survive.