What Size is the Right Size Family and Why

So I have many thoughts about my family and expanding it but what is my reason and is it valid?

I love my children and have always wanted a large family.

But how do I add another when the two I have are so tightly connected.

Would a 3rd child come between them, break their bond?

Would someone always be left out when there is 3.

And if we had a third, I’d want a 4th….is that fair, financially with the cost of child care?

There would be no family trips, no frills for years to come if we had a 3rd and 4th child.

How can I limit the number of children I have based on cost?  

Can you put a cost on a child?

But is it fair to the children I have not to receive the very best of me and things (not talking material things) if I were to add more children.

Shouldn’t I be happy with the 2 I have, since I lost 3?

Am I being selfish?

With the turmoil in the world is it fair to bring more children into this?

But what if we don’t have any more and something tragic happened to one?  How would the other feel after we (the parents) are gone.

I’m getting older.  Is it worth it to have more children when I may not be able to see them grow happily into their own family life?

What about world pollution and the views of all the ‘green’ people who believe having children is hazardous to the environment?  

Are they for real?  Are their thoughts and concerns valid?

These are the thoughts of a mother who desperately wants more children in her heart, but her head tells her something different.