Freedom to Choose

Having the freedom beginning to return to choose the course of action into my lifestyle and events that surround my life I find that as I become less dependent upon my addictive drug, xanex, I am becoming more socially capable to mixing and carrying upon intelligent conversations, laughter, frank and honest discussions..I find this remarkable and enjoyable, for I do not feel dulled and foggy as I once was each and every day for so long. I write this not with pride, but with humility, and rememberance that I am fighting still, and not to let my guard down, to protect myself at all times, and to remember that what I am up against could cause me to trip or stumble. I am grateful to come to this realization, as with coming to the opposite of finding more enjoyment with life as well. It is far from having the icing on the cake, but in the only words I can describe it as being would to write that I am beginning to recieve nibbles of it, and it tastes delightful and very sweet indeed.
As with each entry, this comes from the mercy and grace of God...without Him and his blessing, I would be as I was, but with him, I become stronger, for whatever his will might carry, I am only that of what he has written in my book of life.

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