Finally came to terms with reality

People would alway's tell me that " time heals all wonds " it doesn't fully heal in my opinion : but scab over. Well, GOOD ENOUGH! sigh* I haven't written in here forever because I have been totally tied down with family duties. ( JOYFUL ...NOT! ) But keeping busy is the best way not to go insane. I noticed when I'm a lone my brain wonders off into a whole other world that seizes to excist. Doctors and medical professionals would call that " crazy ".!! WHATEVER

The past while I have been trying to come to terms with the redburnt mark issue. It's odd though I didn't get any signs until 6 months later and lasted up til 2 months ago. I still have a lot of discharge but the burnt look has gone away. I'm less stressed inregards to that matter. Though I am VERY tired since I have been working 28 days straight the past while waking up at god damn 4am - 5pm  , 7 pm sleeping. REPEAT day after day....totally ****** up. But MEH* at least I got paid. Being less poor does make a person feel more confident not having to think about being in debt. Though, this locked down feeling is making me........................simplyfrustrated!!!

I can't wait until that ******* of a father comes back to take back his spot. I GOD DAMN hate working on the ocean...........