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Had opp but feeling worse

Jul 24, 2008 01:55AM - 2 comments

I had opp yesterday and it all went well but now  I feel worse than I did before I had it. On Monday and Tuesday I was down to next to nothing in relation to bleeding and I was feeling positive about TTC again next cycle. After opp i'm now bleeding again (which DR says will last no longer than a week as he fixed blood vessel and suctioned some remains), but it has brought back all the same feelings I felt when I miscarried six weeks ago. I'm depressed and sad that all of this is stirred up again. I'm also angry because my problems should have been handle properly to begin with so i didn't have to put up with six weeks of bleeding and now an extra week!

I know i can try again and i should be greatful that i know i can conceive but i'm scared of this all happening again. I'm scared i'll get pregnant again and i'll worry myself sick about miscarriage and my mum being so sick. I desperately want to start a family I just feel at the moment i'm never going to ready. I need to try to get into a good head space otherwise i'm going to drive myself crazy. The specialist wants to see me in four weeks for a follow up and says I should have AF by then.

So many things to think about....how can I relax.    

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by Whatawoman, Jul 24, 2008 04:10AM
Thing is hard as it is you have to forget what has happened and move to what is happening -  it is the only way to emotionally heal -  I dont mean forget about the baby and the miscarriage but forget about whathappened after -  dwelling on the dr's wrong doings is only torturing yourself and slowing up your emotional healing. Try to think about how now it is sorted and you can start moving forward.

Your body and mind will know whent he time is right and of course you will fear it happening again but try to think positive and find lots to keep your mind occupied during the first few weeks of pregnancy and get past 'that point'

Give yourself time and space to heal and be kind to yourself
Helen
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by carebear0202, Jul 24, 2008 11:41AM
Oh my goodness! Get out of your head for alittle while!! Read a crazy psyco book and then another and another!! Just give yourself some time. We all feel like we don't have any time to spare....but we really do!!! You will get through this. Think of it as surgically...not your own body doing it to itself!!!! You are not broken. I know totally how you feel right now. And it took me forever I swear to get on with the show!!!! But really I'm ok and you will be too!!! I just know it!!!

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