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Just blah
Jul 25, 2008 12:00AM
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So last night I had a full upswing... I was laughing and having a great time with my brother Ant and fiance Pete. Talking about movies and just all kinds of stuff. I was in SUCH a great mood! I was feeling good... we stayed up until about 2am just talking. I think it might have been normal... I can't really tell. The thing that makes me think not is because even though I had all this energy, laughing loud, talking loud... I kept freaking out on Pete all night... I really upset him.
But it doesn't matter because today I wake up and just feel blah... extremely tired, anxious, nervous, depressed, irritated. Why? Why? WHY? I just want to scream! And I feel almost paranoid people are watching over my shoulder. And I want to turn around and growl! I get extremely angry and rude even in my actions when people ask me to do a favor like I am their personal secretary... the drawer is two steps away from them! I can't focus on doing work at all! I keep trying to do stuff... but I am so angry, so full of rage! I am going to explode! I didn't even put make up on... I didn't want to... I didn't care. People are talking behind me and its driving me crazy... why am I so angry???
But it doesn't matter because today I wake up and just feel blah... extremely tired, anxious, nervous, depressed, irritated. Why? Why? WHY? I just want to scream! And I feel almost paranoid people are watching over my shoulder. And I want to turn around and growl! I get extremely angry and rude even in my actions when people ask me to do a favor like I am their personal secretary... the drawer is two steps away from them! I can't focus on doing work at all! I keep trying to do stuff... but I am so angry, so full of rage! I am going to explode! I didn't even put make up on... I didn't want to... I didn't care. People are talking behind me and its driving me crazy... why am I so angry???
Namaste,
There could be a multitude of reasons why you're feeling angry today, one of which could be lack of sleep. I don't know if you've ever been diagnoised with a psychological disorder, but yyour mood swings could be indicative of an underlying problem, which, unfortunately can't be diagnoised in this forum.
I suggest you seek the advice of a professional mental healthcare worker who can complete a detail psychological history and evaluation and prepare a treatment plan to assist you in dealing with your issues.
This may include the use of medication(s) and/or adjunct therapy.
It is obviously disrupting your life, so now is the time to deal with it. It isn't going to get better on it's own. You have to take control and make that first step to "nomalcy".
Michael(Jikan)
There could be a multitude of reasons why you're feeling angry today, one of which could be lack of sleep. I don't know if you've ever been diagnoised with a psychological disorder, but yyour mood swings could be indicative of an underlying problem, which, unfortunately can't be diagnoised in this forum.
I suggest you seek the advice of a professional mental healthcare worker who can complete a detail psychological history and evaluation and prepare a treatment plan to assist you in dealing with your issues.
This may include the use of medication(s) and/or adjunct therapy.
It is obviously disrupting your life, so now is the time to deal with it. It isn't going to get better on it's own. You have to take control and make that first step to "nomalcy".
Michael(Jikan)
Hi Michael (Jikan) :o)
I am not sure how you came across my journal??? And my name is Lisa, who/what is Namaste?... but I wanted to say I appreciate your advice very much.
I am actually diagnosed with BiPolar 1, and it has been hard to accept. But I was just ranting in my journal about my day so far...
I haven't been to the doctors in some time, but I have decided to go back... I have an appointment next week actually. I hope it goes well. But again thank you for your advice.
I am not sure how you came across my journal??? And my name is Lisa, who/what is Namaste?... but I wanted to say I appreciate your advice very much.
I am actually diagnosed with BiPolar 1, and it has been hard to accept. But I was just ranting in my journal about my day so far...
I haven't been to the doctors in some time, but I have decided to go back... I have an appointment next week actually. I hope it goes well. But again thank you for your advice.
aw leesarene ,bell here when i read your journal i thought you were taking about me ,you are going through a really tuff time .remember nobody will know just what your going through only the people that has gone through the death of a love one from suicide ,but i know and i told you im here for you hun ,yes you go back when your ready ,please dont wait to long doe,its just i know the pain your going through ,your moods will keep changing and you will start to grieve on top its going to be hard but with help you will start to get your life back , [remember it will take time ]and every one deals with this kind if death in there own time you are young and you have lots of it ,dont rush ,unfortunely some people just think of you heaving depression ,what they forget is your grieving as well and when i said i thought you were talking about in your journal i am going through all those thoughts and feelings so dont think your going mad or anything your not ,do you know what leesarene it would be better if we were going mad then they could lock us up and throw away the key once and for all lol.thake care bell ,call anytime ,
im sorry lisa ,i sent you the wrong pm it was meant for that poor girl that lost her dad and sister through suicide ,please for give me for that ,but some of it could be for you lisa ,you have the same things going on in your life like we do only without the suicide .but the love of your life would be shattered if you took your life ,as ive said to my other friend please go to see your d.r. im sure he will put on meds when you tell him just how your feeling ,and tell him your having suicide thoughts,your are allways with me god bless, bell,
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