week 3 of treatment

i started tx 3 weeks ago already broke into tears three times mainly when i am alone. adam almost left three time last week. started a new job and the work politics suck but i really need to keep it. found out tx is 4000 dollars. medicaid is paying the bill right now. big boss went on vacation and you know the saying. when the cats away the mice will play and they have. have to wait for big boss to come back from vacation to get things staightened out. i am so tired all the time now. went to bed at 11 last night adam woke me up when he got home and just could not go back to sleep got out of bed about 5 this morning took my oldest to school now i am waiting for adam to get up so i can lay down for a couple of hours before he has to be at work tonight. i also find myself snapping at everybody including the kids when they dont listen to me. people at work for mentioning the job bull sh**. snapped yestarday at work at the laziest employee i have ever worked with for mentioning why i try to hurry and get my work done so i can go home when my shift is up. but then calmed down and had a pretty decent night after that. find myself wanting to cry at the littlest things. this morning it was a music video cant remeber which one but i know i like the song. i am losing weight not from starvation but from the lack of being hungry. when i get hungry i try to eat somthing healthy. trying to stay away from junk food. adam has been making me a tonic of v8 fusion fruit and aloe vera juice. it seems to be helping my appetite i have been doing more then snacking healthy. i still try to do things that i would normally do if i was not on tx. (housework laundry) when i have the energy. right now adam is doing most of the work. we have decided to wait on getting married until after tx is over. the way i look at it if we can get through this we can get through anything. well thats all i got for now gotta go. hope to write soon