Million Dollar Question

Where to start? I am so tired of this mess. I realize that I am not a good patient at all. I am not patient at all. I am learning so many things about myself that I am beginning to realize, I don't even know who I am, on a deep level.

I have changed from armour to synthroid after the T3 issues with armour, and now the synthroid is having its own issues. The acid reflux is worse than awful, and my throat burns all the time. I have gained about 10 lbs. So now the question is which is worse the synthroid or the armour and also which is better the synthroid or the armour.

Now that the reflux is terrible, I am thinking maybe I can deal with the T3 "speed" effect maybe better than this, however, when I was dealing with the "speed" effect I was thinking that was terrible too. Throw in the fact that hypothyroid has affected me mentally that I can't even decide which coffee cup to use in the morning, how am I to choose between something as important as medication and treatment.

This is really insane, and I am looking for the day when I get my life back, when I feel good again, when I can actually laugh again, when I can really enjoy simple daily things. This is not going to happen  until I can get on a good medication regimen. Not having a dr that is knowledgeable in thyroid disease is not very encouraging either. I am hoping that when I see the endo in the middle of August, that that will be a great help and that she will be just the one I need.

This disease has stolen so many years from me and I know I can't make them up, but I do want to have a good finish...