I read about more people my age; boys I guess I should be like; things I guess I should be doing.
The need to conform is really tearing at my insides right now. Unfortunately I am far too much of an oddity to fit in.
My logical mind tells me I don't want to, but my emotional mind rebels.
I want to kill myself, or get life good.
Please somebody help my life to be good. :'(
Want to be dead.