10 days clean

Wow, it can be done.  And there are so many things i uncover each day that is a benefit to being non-dependent to opoioids.  Family didn't even really notice, so either they are used to seeing me miserable, or i've got the only observant genes in the family.  
Christmas eve i knew was the last chance to pull off the holiday on this side of the year, so i lost the sweats, cleaned up in a nice suit and hit the stores.  Though thinking was a slow process that day, i did it.  My first excursion from being at home hurting for so long.  And i even lost my car in a damn parking lot, i'm an idiot.  I thought i was going to die, i just wanted my tylenol and phone.  
I even have some suboxones, but i'm happy to feel that i do not want them.  I never woud have belived that the feeling of comfort and happiness while without narcotics is just about as blissful as a fist full of Percs.  I'm so proud of myself.  Yes.