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Ironic and selfish

May 22, 2010 - 4 comments

Today my dad started taking a wander down his memory lane. He got kinda philosophical about life and it was bittersweet. Of course it made me crash headlong into my own memory lane and the disaster I call my life and I went spiraling down into a deep sadness. The thing that bothers me the most is that it was his moment, his time to reflect. I wasn't present for him as I wish I could have been because I took the oportunity to become self-involved. It is just a small moment and all and I won't make a big deal out of it past tonight. I just wish I got over myself long enough to be in the present. Everyone says what a good son I am being to take care of my dad and all. I just wish I knew that was true.

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by SOURKREME, May 25, 2010
Most of the time men are not complemented for what they do but only reminded of their failures. If they say you are a good son you better believe it because most of us take each other for granted..

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by AnnieBrooke, May 25, 2010
I'd also say take the compliments you can get, even if they seem undeserved, because a lot of the time when you deserve a compliment, nobody is standing there handing one out.  

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by AnnieBrooke, May 26, 2010
The other thing I was thinking, is that you certainly are not prevented from bringing up what he said again and asking some questions.  He might wander back down there again and give you a better chance to be responsive.

Good luck!  I think it sounds like you are a good son even if you were not present with him at that moment.

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by beelzebubba, May 26, 2010
Thank you both for your comments. I will take the compliments in gratitude. I was pretty frustrated with myself on that day, but I know that for the most part I do a good job with my pop/ The important thing is that he knows I am there for him and that he is loved.

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