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Ironic and selfish

May 22, 2010 - 4 comments

Today my dad started taking a wander down his memory lane. He got kinda philosophical about life and it was bittersweet. Of course it made me crash headlong into my own memory lane and the disaster I call my life and I went spiraling down into a deep sadness. The thing that bothers me the most is that it was his moment, his time to reflect. I wasn't present for him as I wish I could have been because I took the oportunity to become self-involved. It is just a small moment and all and I won't make a big deal out of it past tonight. I just wish I got over myself long enough to be in the present. Everyone says what a good son I am being to take care of my dad and all. I just wish I knew that was true.

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by SOURKREME, May 25, 2010
Most of the time men are not complemented for what they do but only reminded of their failures. If they say you are a good son you better believe it because most of us take each other for granted..

by AnnieBrooke, May 25, 2010
I'd also say take the compliments you can get, even if they seem undeserved, because a lot of the time when you deserve a compliment, nobody is standing there handing one out.  

by AnnieBrooke, May 26, 2010
The other thing I was thinking, is that you certainly are not prevented from bringing up what he said again and asking some questions.  He might wander back down there again and give you a better chance to be responsive.

Good luck!  I think it sounds like you are a good son even if you were not present with him at that moment.

by beelzebubba, May 26, 2010
Thank you both for your comments. I will take the compliments in gratitude. I was pretty frustrated with myself on that day, but I know that for the most part I do a good job with my pop/ The important thing is that he knows I am there for him and that he is loved.

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