Whelp, i thought i was doing a little better last night and this morning. I helped out with our VBS at church last night and will do the same again tonight. I was able to be ok, to smile and laugh a little. This morning i had high hopes until i got to work and checked facebook and saw a comment of TIm's that just breaks my heart all of again. Its like he's a totally different person now and like i never really knew who he was. I feel so sick to my stomach now it just breaks my heart all over again. I want to break down and cry but its like the medications won't let me. How in the world did i fall in love with a man that i apparently didn't really know? How did i let this happen to me?