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A Bit Leery...

Jun 08, 2010 - 0 comments
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Weight

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Weight Loss

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food

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abdominal

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Skin

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muscles

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abdomen

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fat

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loose

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Diet

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difficult

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Obsessive

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saggy



Well, while weight loss is progressing at a slower, but still steady rate, I am noticing to my chagrin that my lower belly, which has always been large and certainly was massive at my heaviest weight, has begun to sag a bit as it shrinks...which is filling me with visions of ending up with a lifeless bag of stretched-out skin drooping haplessly from my abdomen at the end of my journey.

I had actually HAD liposuction on my lower belly some years ago, as for some physiological reason that part of my body insisted on ballooning out even at my lowest weight of 127, which gave me a distinct "pregnant" appearance. I'm thinking now that I should have gone in for the tummy tuck, as my abdominal muscles were still loose and my gut still protruded even AFTER the liposuction.

Even if I don't end up with a "bag" below my belly button, the skin certainly will be a lot looser and flimsier in that area. Nuts.

On some level I'm still fighting the urge to tinker with my food portions. That goes to show you how insidious the dieting mentality is. I can sense that I'm still obsessive about "rules" now and then, and a corner of me still gets panicky if I think that I am on the brink of "breaking" any of those rules, which just makes life more difficult all 'round for the rest of the day which is JUST what I didn't want by trying to just learn how to eat. *sigh* The only way to sort that out is to break one of these arbitrary rules deliberately and then wait in vain for Armageddon to arrive...which I know it won't. So there. Ha.

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