Jun 20, 2010
Well, last night was so so so much fun. unfortunately I am paying paying paying for it today. I was starting to have "rebound" pain last night, but nothing like what I woke up with this morniung. My entire body feels like it has been beaten to ****. Not in like a tired muscle way, not even in an angry muscle from stretching way. It felt like my entire body, from the bottom of my buttocks, to the middle of my head, feelis like an iron vise. Even breathing is making it worse. I woke up in one of those crunchy positions, tried taking my meds, tried shifting a little, etc etc. but no, it prevailed. Have slathered myself in voltarin, took breakthru meds, etc. Also listening to John Kabat Zinn. Hopefully by 1 or 2 the nucynta will have kicked in, and then the morphine hopefully will make a difference as well, but it takes so long to reach active levls it seems. May try aromatherapy. Even breathing makes it worse. :(
Is now 630, I am going to have to go agead and consider today a loss. I have a new oddly tender spot on my leg, and that has me a little freaked. IDK what would cause so much strange feling tenderness there? It feels different than my normal referred pain does, but then I wonder if it might just be inflammation from activity, but if I am on so many anti-inflammatory meds, and have the stupid 90 dollar anti inflammation patch stuck directly on top of it, why does the damn thing still hurt so much? And i dont know if the is possible, but it almost feels like it "refers" up!
I can't tell if it is just the original pain that feels different post procedure, or if it is related to the increase in buzzing sensations. I assume those are nerve pain. But the lymphoma and ms symptoms I have scare me a little. I almost feel afraid that there is something else wrong that I wasnt aware of because the pain in my low back/leg was so consuming. But i have no idea, I could be subconciously clutching at straws in an effort to find a path to "better" or some cure. I have to heal, not go back in time. I am here, now.