Doing better

Back from vacation.  I am doing alot better.  I needed the vacation.  I did good on the plane.  I prayed and I felt totally at ease.  God took care of me and my family.  I am still dealing with depression at times so I decide to go to a counselor.  Not a dr...I don't want any more meds.  I am praying for God to bring some balance in my life.  One day I am happy and confident and loving.  The next day I am mean, jealous and anixous.  I know I need help...I'm am so sick of this up and down.  My family is sick of my up and down.  I have to get better soon or I'll be all alone.