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Shall I start with yesterday?

Jun 24, 2010 - 0 comments
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but before I forget, I am rather upset with my uterus for shedding blood when I've so politely told it I hate when it does that and provided it with plenty of pills to stop said bleeding. Thanks.

Woke up early yesterday for my MSPCA mentoring session. It was certainly interesting. I'm scheduled for mondays now. Then I picked up some books with my mom and I'm always dissapointed I never find secrets in Postsecret books. What am I doing wrong? I got home and packed and went to steve's. We watched District 9 and then I went to work. I was alone and some of the waitresses and really holes in *****. Most are really nice and understanding though. I'm learning, k? K.
I got out of work early and drove to Shei's house. Scavengered her house for toaster waffles and butter and giggled for a while. We went to sleep. Caelan woke up screaming a couple times during the night. Poor baby, she was squirming like her tummy hurt. I didn't wake up any more than I normally do though. Morning came. I was a little slow at realizing it takes a half hour to get to YAP. We got there and packed up and took the van to the park. Unpacked, set up tents. Cut food. Me and Shei hauled a bucket to this spicket in the middle of a field and then the whole way back. Heavy. We made the corn, which came out lovely, if I do say so myself. On several different grills. It was ridiculously sunny and hot out. Sometimes dark clouds passed over, or it sprinkled a second, but not bad at all. I was sweating. I don't like sweating. We swung and went on the seesaw and walked to the store and back and served the hikers and ate and it was Paul's birthday and Emily got smores stuff so we ate smores. Yummy.

We drove back in Fran's car with Tom and unpacked again back at the building. Then me and George sat on my car while Shei talked to Mr. Nick. I did want to meet him, but what the hell would I say? I was shy. His little girl is adorable. Very serious. But I approve. I'm ok with it. He seemed like a good guy. If he makes her happy, then I won't say a word, I'll be happy too.

We drove to billy's and then back to sheis and I had a headache and got really grumpy and showered, ate cereal, took Motrin, and went to Shei's house. Became human again after a while. We hung out their. Shei's friends aunt killed herself. And I don't know how that feels, but I told her I want to help. I don't know her friend much, but I know she's a very nice girl and her aunt had two young children and I can't even imagine losing my mom. My mom is my best friend. But her aunt killed herself, not how Alexa did, but still. And Shei got upset cause she understands and I never met Alexa but I'd like to have a word with her. I just want to show her what she left behind here. She left a beautiful girl who looked up to her and misses her dearly now, every day. I would just like to tell her that. But I couldn't be upset with her. Aside from the fact that I didn't know her, I know what it feels like, those last moments. I know she had her reasons and I hope she's found peace. That's all you can hope for the dead, isn't it? No more pain, no more suffering, no more illness, just peace. Please, that's all I want is peace.

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