Confusion, depression......

I may not be on tomorrow  8-8-08....Yes, I am so very confused....

It appears I am so at ease when I write for others ..... I hide behind my pen.....That is good as I wish my true inner feelings be brought forth for the benefit of others...... I am hurting now and unable to continue with a clear mind..... My friend DominoSara Knows what this is all about....If you wish you can contact her.....

I am totally destroyed and unable to talk about it without much emotion.......This is because of things I have no control over....Quite simply  put , I was born.......Some of you may suffer from this same  "curse".....

Now I am lost ....I don't wish to communicate with anyone until I can deal with this....I am so not sure if I will be back....I would like to but I have no idea where "Back is" or where  this is going to lead me........

So many " family " problems and blind people in my "family "..... None have guide dogs....So they tend to enter into areas they know nothing about..........

I wish this didn't come at such a bad time as there is so much left for me to do here....... My "loving family" would not approve of me being here...... They are a loving bunch if you fit their mold...... Being the black sheep some how I just didn't fit that......

With having to leave for work  at 4:30 AM, I have to gets ome rest now.....As I go , I ask each and every one of you if you can help another do so, if you cant try finding someone that can...... Always comfort those that need comfort....Hold the hands of those that need hands held..... Pray for those things you cannot change .......Live to be an example to others......  Give hope where hope can be given....Where it can't give hugs......and compassion....
Love those that need love and those that hate love them more, they'll come  around......

Last I offer you this:

May the great spirit that makes all things possible hear my prayer..... Take all my friends and let them feel your closeness forever......Help them  overcome their individual challenges......Give them the wisdom to help the castaways of society...... Give them compassion to comfort those that need comfort....

Oh Great Spirit with love for one and all......I ask you to protect my friends from the dangers and harm from those demons that wish to poison their souls.....The magesty of the eagle that was given us by you to shape our lives around.....With so much grace and power  that when we see them, we look to your sky to view their power...... Give this power to each friend that they may use it for the good of mankind........So when they enter the final ceremony, they will thank you for being able to work in your service.....As their reward I pray you would give each a horse to ride to the resting place where we are all one tribe and nation....... Oh great creator maker of all things, Mender of all hearts, forgiver of all transgressions...... Guide my friends on the journey you have placed them on......Be their blanket when they are cold, their water when they are dry, their lodge when they need shelter.... Be their food when they are hungry, Be their fire to keep them dry and their staff when they fall......... Above all great and loving spirit be their hope when all is lost..............Gator