no help

i've been battling doctors and hospitals for years to help me. no one will help me. why do i look like i have rickets when i've never been short of food? why does everything - my stomach, my bones, my muscles - hurt so much? why do i shake all the time? i just wish i could atleast know why and have some peace, even if nothing can be done about it.

i've lost a lot of weight in the last couple of weeks. havent gone to school or to my therapist, or even gotten out of bed. i dont want to spend my life like this.