Jul 09, 2010
About an hour ago I felt okay. Then I went to visit my mom and dad and read some of the paper. Both have Alzheimer's. I have Bipolar/dementia. This is getting to me. My mom felt really good and she was talking and talking and it was really making me nervous. My ears were ringing like thousands of committees going through my brain. She wants to do this and that. She wants to go out to eat and I said, you go ahead I can't go. Then I added if they were going there they could drop off her prescription from the doctor yesterday and pick it up on the way back. Before I was going to do it. I do everything for them. At this very moment, the only thing I can do is write this in my journal. Writing is my therapy. My fingers are trembling as well as my body. My brain feels like a fog - I can't breathe. I feel like crying I don't like this feeling. I need counseling so bad.