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Jul 09, 2010 - 4 comments
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About an hour ago I felt okay.  Then I went to visit my mom and dad and read some of the paper.  Both have Alzheimer's.  I have Bipolar/dementia.  This is getting to me.  My mom felt really good and she was talking and talking and it was really making me nervous.  My ears were ringing like thousands of committees going through my brain.  She wants to do this and that.  She wants to go out to eat and I said, you go ahead I can't go.  Then I added if they were going there they could drop off her prescription from the doctor yesterday and pick it up on the way back.  Before I was going to do it.  I do everything for them.  At this very moment, the only thing I can do is write this in my journal.  Writing is my therapy.  My fingers are trembling as well as my body.  My brain feels like a fog - I can't breathe.  I feel like crying I don't like this feeling. I need counseling so bad.

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by Bill1954, Jul 09, 2010
Your primary care doctor can help with this to some degree if he/she is easier to access than mental health providers.

A suggestion would be to print this page, and take it with you to your appointment to use as a talking point; I think you’re description will be of value to the doc. They might want to consider antidepressants or something; give them a call and get in though so you can get some relief; it doesn’t sound pleasant at all.

--Bill


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by kunkielove, Jul 09, 2010
Bill, you're truly an Angel, always the first to respond to someone's post.  And with only the best of information/support!

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by vickie5989, Jul 09, 2010
Thank you.  I do have Lithium for my bipolar and lorespam for anxiety, which I took two of..  It worked - it knocked me out.  I usually have Celexa, but when I tried to get it refilled before my vacation the pharmacy said they couldn't refill them unless a doctor said so.  I asked them to contact him.  She wouldn't do it. "You have to be  walk in and talk to her."  That's a 8 hour walk in.  I can't do that.  So I have been off my antidepressants for 2 weeks now.  I had a trigger - I had a sonogram yesterday and it seems my liver (Hep C) doesn't look to good as well as my left kidney.  I'm scared and I want know anything until my next appointment.

Thank you

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by rmevans, Jul 09, 2010
I'm sorry you can't get your Celexa filled.  I can't believe your pharmacist wouldn't contact you doctor.  It makes me really angry that a pharmacist wouldn't take the time to help you when they know how important it is for these meds to be taken continuously.  My pharmacist does that for me all the time - but then I live in Bozeman, MT,  which is a lot smaller than Dallas.  Or I can leave a message with my pdoc and she will call the prescription in for me.  Do you have a weekly pill case?  I find that if I fill that every Sunday, I not only remember take them all, but I know what I am running out of a week ahead of time so I make sure I get my meds before I need them.
I'm sure the returning depression is making the reaction to your sonogram even scarier and making it harder to be with your parents.  I wish I could be of some help.  I do have a counselor and I don't know what I'd do without her at times.  Just keep writing and trying to communicate with us.

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