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i've been hooked on opiates for a few years now. no injury, just abusing them. a doctor put me on methadone, not a big fan, i'm having a harder time coming off these. if someone is considering methadone for opiate withdrawal, please be well informed, it's a nasty drug!... [More]
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gotta be better than this

Jan 01, 2008 03:35PM - 8 comments
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i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. feels like my whole life is about being clean or not being clean, ya know? can't really complain though, i created this did'nt i. my 6 year old daughter is all i've got left, so my journey is to be the best father i can be clean.. that's where i'm at now. glad to have this web-site, enables me to release things on my mind. love all you people, over and out. . .

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by dab1030, Jan 01, 2008 03:59PM
Do you feel like giving some advice to a mother trying to help her daughter detox from opiates.  She is taking suboxone but it's too soon to tell if that is going to work.  Should I be pushing her to attend NA meetings?  I hear that sometimes it helps and then others say it is not good (she is 22 years old).

by jessejames31, Jan 01, 2008 04:06PM
i wish i did have the answers, i'm still trying to figure out how to do this for myself. if your daughter is on board, she'll do whatever it takes, but you ask if you should be pushing her to attend, i dont think pushing at all is a good idea. maybe suggest to her that it will be helpful to attend a support group that feel what she feels. . .

by pintorider, Jan 01, 2008 04:17PM
dab1030
Hi, I am really kicking suboxone right now. I'm not trying to scare you but its hard. I have wonderful parents and all the support in the world- not to mention people in NA who have gone through this and have carried me ( literally at times) through this evil disiese. I was extremely hooked on pain killers ( I still hold resentments to those a88hole docs) and after a one week treatment didnt work I went on methadone. I've been on that for two and a half years- completly drug free besides methadone- and wanted to get my life back. I was told suboxone was a miracle drug- well maybe for some! I was given 30 8mg tablets and was told to detox myself, now too broke to get more and in major withdrawl. I have the shakes, cold to the core but sweating bad, can't sleep eat or drink, and I have a nine year old that doesnt understand.
If you loved one is going to be on suboxone and has insurance take thm to a detox center. Its too hard at home even with all these people that love me. I walked in the living room last night and my parents were watching a movie and some one was smoking crack- never even done crack b4 but it filled my head with trouble- I should have gone to a meeting. Meetings are a cure, suboxone is not. suggesting meetings, going with them, maybe even calling the 1800# to get a hold of someone in the area that can talk to your loved one? All I know is taking this suboxone completly by the book and then running out when I was suppost to not abusing it at all has been the scariest moment I've had in the last year and a half. If your kid needs someone to talk to I'm here.
Good Luck. I'll be praying (to my godess) for you

by nefesh, Jan 05, 2008 04:39PM
sick and tired of being sick and tired - that sounds about right... I kin relate...  What are you on and what's the plan, Stan?  You sound like you got all the ingredients for success - someone you love to be responsible to, level-headed self-awareness, and a good heart...  Forward and Further!!  Skies the limit til your soulz ringin' with singin' (even in the rain)... of course that means one day, one step, mebbe even one hour at a time...  You can definitely do it (with a pretty serious heavenward tilt of the hat as well!)   Good Luck!!

Nefesh

by sunshine521, Jun 14, 2008 02:33AM
Hey Jesse are you still using or have you gotten clean? The reason I ask is Im just beginning & Im like you, I have to work and Im jus wondering if you were successful with the withdrawls and working? By the way my name is Liz, 27 in Va. I could really use some support and tips if you are willing to share!! Thanks

by Brockyboy, Jun 28, 2008 11:35PM
Hi.  I understand the addiction to drugs is very powerful and I also know how much it hurts those we love.  You must be clean forever as your daughter will think you dont love her as you choose the drugs over her when you could of spent the money on other much needed things or even spend it on making memorys with your angel girl on holidays and such.  Im just saying this from your daughters eyes. the innocent just interpert it all differently, thats all. Drugs are such a bad thing, they take away so much more than they have to offer.  Im glad you have found this site, its fantastic how its helping you and making you feel not so alone, your a lovely person with plenty to offer, goodluck!!

by Brockyboy, Jun 28, 2008 11:36PM
Me again,  hey what are opiates? what is that drug for and what form is it in?

by XKARMAX08, Jul 02, 2008 11:33AM
I dont know exactly what you are going thru.
But at the same time I can relate to being sick and tired.
I am tired of having anxiety and worrying about myself.

This is why I am here.
Also, my best friend is on Methodone for OXY's and she is hurting pretty had too.

Keep your head up and you will get thru it.

Talk to you soon,
Denise

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