Jul 27, 2010
Oh My gosh I just wrote a whole long thing and I deleted it and Sure did not mean to...Oops...so what I said is that it is so hard when you have to eat crow and I have found that I have had to do that a bit now. I have let too many feelings get the best of me and playing into a hand of drama. I want to get so things off my chest but at the same time, some things should be said better or at the write time or a better form..these are things that I have found myself going threw. I'm grateful to be learning and growing I do find it hurts at times and as I said I sure hate when I'm the one to make things worse.
I also want to ask what you all think or whom ever may read this message, I'm wondering if I should do AA/NA? I was not taking the pain medication for getting a high. I took it for pain and I went on my own down from 80 mgs a day to 10 and stayed at that ten for a few years. So I don't find myself dealing with the wanting it part. I do find myself seeing life for the first time in a long time and I mess up but I'm seeing allot of that for the first time with open Eyes...oh and to add I'm going to be seeing a counselor starting this week. So I'm kind of hoping that , that will help allot......
Well I hope someone reads this and gets back to me.....