Jul 28, 2010
I am amazed at how lame I can be at times. I am wise enough to know that there are questions one shouldn't ask if they are not prepared to hear the answer. In this case I found out she is engaged. I pretended to myself like it wouldn't matter... but apparently it does. Which is foolish because in the end it really doesn't matter. So the fact that it does is my responsibility and I better figure out how to deal with it. Because she has her own life now. Because I want to remain friends. Even if I have the strongest echoes of wanting her.