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Aug 03, 2010 - 0 comments
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brother

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twins

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camp

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Dexter

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alone

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shei

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Cleaning

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messy room

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caelan

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TIME

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worried

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mom

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steve

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service

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cars

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SPCA

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ferrets

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JACK

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tator

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hammie

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Orange Julious

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kicks

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hamburger

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bed time

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ATM

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ice cream

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melt down

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tears

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ohio

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family

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friends

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putting your whole heart into

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Dominoes

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Potty Training

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reward system



Shithead and the twins off a camp this morning and came home. I watched 3 episodes of Dexter and went over to Shei's house to help her clean her disaster of a bedroom. It really was a disaster. Time went by a bit faster than I originally assumed it would and I realized it was almost four. I called my mom, who KNEW where I was, just as steve pulled into the drive, really worried. Apparently he had called and I hadn't answered, my mom had called him looking for me, he'd called sheis house, everywhere, and we were supposed to do something an hour and a half ago. I wasn't aware it had a time set. It was just my big mistake of the day. Or, biggest anyways. So we went and met my mom at the SPCA and Jack stole her heart too. I do have hope. Then we met again at the mall and she bought me Orange Julious =D. My newest kick. And it was get one free day, Tuesdays! Yaaaay. Yummmmm. Stopped at home, went to steve's. Ate a hamburger between bread. Back to Shei's. Fought Caelan to bed. Went for ice cream and an adventure for a working ATM. I got a bit depressed. I'm not sure why. It's been happening a lot lately. Even the slightest little thing that goes wrong, or not even goes wrong, just doesn't got he way I pictured it in my head, I fall apart. The tears will start soon, I know it. What am I gonna do?

I'm headed to Ohio this weekend. Jon's bringing a friend, but my only female friend has an infant and doesn't wanna go anyways. I'm sad.

Basically the things I was vying for this week were Shei coming to Ohio and Jack. I put my whole heart into things, it's like, no way could they fall through. And then when they do it breaks my heart. I set myself up for this. I never see it coming either, till the dominoes have started falling.



I'm trying a new method with my ferrets. Everytime I see them poop in the cage, they get ONE piece of dog food. Otherwise, no dog food. And I have to see it, it's gotta be right after with the hope that they'll understand. If they are about to poop outside the cage and I manage to run them back, a piece of dogfood. If I don't manage, no food. It's a start. I hope.

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