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Aug 15, 2010 - 0 comments
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dreams

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mom

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abuse

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Guns

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violence



I keep dreaming about the night that I saw my Dad holding a gun to my Mom's head. I keep thinking about the fact that my Dad raped (mentally, physically, and emotionally) her and that's why I'm here. I feel like I'm the one to blame for everything that's gone wrong in her life since 1986.

Maybe if I weren't here, that night wouldn't have happened. If I weren't here, she wouldn't have had to deal with him and his anger or abuse. If I weren't here, she'd be healthy. Maybe?

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