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A letter I wrote on DearThyroid.org

Aug 27, 2010 - 5 comments
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Dear Thyroid,



It’s been almost a year since we parted ways. My mother worried I was being overzealous, and expressed her opinion that maybe I should reconsider our separation. Others tried to be supportive of my choosing to leave you, but I could always catch a tiny bit of doubt in their eyes. Some said I wouldn’t make it without you, they said I’d be a fool to leave you.



The unknown is a scary place. There are some things in life you have to do alone. I’d wondered if I was making a mistake…how would my life be without you, after what seems a life time together? Secretly, I wasn’t sure I could make it without you. Over the years you made me doubt myself as a wife, a mother, and a woman. You made me so tired, and at other times, so ugly inside, and out. You scarred me in more ways than words can express. I was dying inside, I had to choose to live without you.



The decision was the right one, I know that now. It’s taken me a while to really believe that my life is better without you. Changing my life, and redefining who I am as a woman wasn’t an easy task to complete. I am grateful for each day that I grow stronger. The scars you left on me remind me of my strength, and my courage. It reminds me of my faith in God, and that I am not a victim. I am a survivor, today, and forever.



Yours Truly,

Justi

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by hope4thegoodstuff, Aug 28, 2010
Love this.  Describes everything that happened to me..perfectly.

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by Justi_has_a_booboo, Aug 29, 2010
XOXO I hope you are doing well! I'm starting to feel as normal as normal can be taking medication each morning :P

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by hope4thegoodstuff, Aug 29, 2010
Yep, me too.  Thyroid wise I am doing very well.  Found out I am diabetic, but like the thyroid cancer it's early and I just need to learn how to completely change all of my nasty eating habits.  that's all.  LOL.  I have to learn to shop differently, think differently and do differently.  So, I'm trying to change.

I'm glad to here you are doing so well. Now that my daughter is an old married lady...Ha...I will be out and about on medhelp more often.  I have missed my medhelp friends.  

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by utahmomma, Aug 31, 2010
You rock my world girl!

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by Justi_has_a_booboo, Aug 31, 2010
Love you UtahMomma! XOXO thanks for getting me through!

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