Oct 12, 2017
It's been really hard this year. Suicidal ideation felt more real than it has ever felt. Went inpatient again and almost went in a third time soon after discharge. New medication: zoloft, latuda, halcion, vistaril and depakote. Anxiety is going up because of the thought of coming into contact with Tommy again. Now that I'm coming out of the depression i am finding my courage again. I need to find a better obsession than worrying about Tommy becUse this is eating me up. Im getting the help i need. I need to focus on getting income again. What a year. But i am glad i didnt do anything i would have regretted. It was def scary how close i felt to death.