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College fair today

Oct 05, 2010 - 0 comments
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college fair

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culinary

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college apps

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lunch

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nap

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reading

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alone

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lonely

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shei

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billy

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steve

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nails

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baby caelan

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parents

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friends

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scared

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cigarette

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Baby

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mom

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TIRED

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sleep

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bad story teller

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Love

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cook

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over

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smoke

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Cleaning

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locked oven

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hungry

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rice

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hot water dispenser

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kiss

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confusion



It was kinda fun. I was lonely, yes, but whatever. I had a nice nap on the way there and ate a happy little lunch. I can be content alone. You know?

I was supposed to go with Shei and Billy to get our nails done, but his mom came home and freaked out because I was there. Not at me, but because I was there. I felt horrible. I'm really sorry. I won't go back to his house. Not for a while. I was scared. Shei gave me a cigarette cause I was wide eyed and near tears, shaking. I can't handle that tone of voice, the yelling, any of it. I crumble. I'm a big baby.

We went back to shei's house and I fed  the infant that isn't an infant anymore. Steve got there when we did and we all hung out. He was with Isaac before he came with us. Good for him. He's so smart.

And we came home early because i was very tired and steve wanted to leave and I had a mini tantrum and left without saying bye to them. I felt bad, I just was so irrritable for no reason. All of a sudden.

I got home and tried to tell my mom about my day and geez, I know I'm no story teller but she fell asleep while I talked. Wow mom. Nice to know you care. Nah I'm kidding, I love my mom. I woke her up to tell her.
She was trying to cook something today and when she opened the oven smoke came out and so she was cleaning it and when it does that it always locks up so I got home, starving, with a stomach ache, grumpy, it was locked. I couldn't cook anything. I made instant rice in a bowl on the counter with the hot water dispenser. I LOVE that thing.

And I finally asked Shei, I asked why did she kiss me. Because it's driving me up the wall and she says she likes me and I know it must just be me making these things up that I think. I wonder if things will be different now.

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