Re: Why Me

Yesterday I might have given the impression that I live my life in a very deppresive state. I love my life and take advantage of everyday. I might have sounded like I always walk with my head down because I am having difficulty concieving again..I don't. I might have given the impression that I don't take advantage of the love my little princess gives me..I do. Yesterday I was just in the worst state I have been in a long time. Every month I go through something I think alot of women go through with not being able to concieve. The anxiety and he dreaded monthly visitor. Normally I live in a routine where my husband and I try to concieve and nothing happens and we have been through this for 4 years now and so it doesn't really surprise me that i didn't concieve..but when I started to notice something different in my body that little voice said "hey I think your pregnant", so my heart immediatly started to love something that wasn't there. I got a little carried away with it because I actually thought I was pregnant. So when I went to get a pregnancy test at the store I felt a little cramp. I know that when you are pregnant you might get some minor cramping. Well when I got home I went to the bathroom and I noticed that I had my period. It was so crushing to me because every month I can read my body when I get my period I get the typical PMS and that is it. This time it was so different. Body aches and headaches and very tender and sore breast and those are the symptoms I had when I got pregnant with my daughter. So yeah I got carried away. And no I don't and ever show my daughter what I am going through. I hide my emotions with her when it comes to this stuff of course but I was so overwhelmed with this. But I do love my family and I do consider it a complete family with an opening for a little one anytime...Today I felt so much better and so we went out to dinner and had a good time..so I am back to normal.