feeling so old

I am just always tired ..and weary... my legs and feet hurt so much it makes me not want to move ; and I am gaining more and more weight . When I get depressed and stressed I eat and gain weight fast -when i gain weight i hate myself so the cycle as ugly as it is goes on and on ...

I dread having to go to work tomorrow - im so tired , feel so alone ...how can you have friends when you are always tired and not wanting to do anything ...even my family just doesn't understand ... I push myself hard and so much that makes me feel even worse till i finally just breakdown.

so tired of not knowing how to stop this , how to keep myself from aging fast ...recently I talked about my mom and her family ..they all died young from different diseases - I am the youngest of my siblings and the sickest as well ...makes me wonder ya know ...