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Oct 18, 2010 - 6 comments
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Why cant people realize that methadone actaully helps people? Yes, some people abuse it, but we deal with people abusing situations everyday. There is always someone that ruins it for the rest of us. Methadone changed my life for the better. I do not plan on staying on it forever. I see it as a stepping stone. Some people stay on it forever and that is their choice and their choice alone. No one should critisize them or look down on them because they are on methadone because being on methadone is a hell of a lot better then what they were doing. So that might sound like methadone is the lesser of two evils, if thats the way you want to look at it and the way that most people look at it. But i am so over all the negativity that comes along with methadone.
It is helping me to get well. It is helping to get my life structured again. I used to think that I was a strong person, but not until I had to deal with my addiction to oxy. I thought oxy was the best thing ever! I loved to get high. I loved the high of oxy. I loved chopping it up and snorthing it. I loved the taste of the drip. I loved everything about oxy....It made me feel like I could do anything, it made me not shy, it gave me energy.....I felt like I was super mom when I was high on oxy. I was never hungry so I lost tons of weight. But, as you all know, it all came to an end. Being high started to not be as fun because it was taking more and more to get high and i couldnt get over how much money i just spend or that i didnt have anymore so while i was high i was worried about coming down and when i was going to get more. I began running out of money and running out things to sell and things to do to come up with money. I ended up racking up huge amounts of debit and ruined my credit. I stopped doing the things that I once loved, like photography. I even sold my camera to get high. I stole from friends and family so I could get high. I did things that are illegal that know ones knows about till this day. I have guilt and shame that i have to deal with every day now because of my oxy addiction. I started doing coke and mdma when i couldnt find oxy, til i ended up doing the one things i told myself i would never do. Meth.
That was when I got myself into the clinic. I cant tell you how much ive changed in 5mos of going to the clinic. I kno that is a short period of time but not living the life of a druggie can produce massive amounts of change. I gained weight and look healthy now, I bought a new camera and lens and i made my first payment to a debt consolidation agency, i have money left over after my bills are paid, i can buy my kids clothes instead of getting donations....i have a normal sleep schedule now, and i have started to enjoy my time with my kids again. i always wanted to get a sitter or go in my room and be high in peace and now i just want to make up for lost time. I love being with them and part of the shame and guilt i feel now is because of the lack of parenting i did while i was high.
ive been dealing with my addiction to pills for over 5yrs now....and i feel the most normal ive felt in a long time now. the only person in my life that can see that right now is my boyfriend. but he is the one that has seem me before and after my addiction. we have been together for 8yrs now...he's seen it all....he really didnt want me to go to the clinic to begin with but now he wants me to go every day because he is that happy with all my changes.....so i am proof that the clinic DOES work...it is not as bad as everyone thinks...if they could witness a change like my own then maybe they would think differently.
as far as the withdrawals being the worst, the only reason why people even think that is because they last longer but they are not stronger...just longer....so ya, 15dys of withdrawals ***** compared to 4-7 from, say, vicadon.....after 15 dys i can see why they would seem worse.....but they are the same strenght......and you dont withdrawal if you taper....doesnt anyone know what tapering is? why would you go cold turkey off methatdone anyways? that is stupid. you can taper of methadone comfortably and that is what i plan to do when i feel that i am strong enough to start tapering. when i feel like i can get off methadone and not use oxy again, then i will taper off in a way that i do not have to suffer. i think it is a stupid blanket statement to say that methadone is the hardest thing to withdrawal from. TAPER!
anyways....im just so over the negativitly that goes with methadone. it does amazing things. of course, you need to work the process....its not some magic pill...you need to go to councesling and groups, which i do....i do two groups a week and one counseling session a week plus ive added this site as a means of support......so im not just taking methadone and im not saying that im doing so good now just because of the methadone but if it werent for the methadone clinic, i would be getting the counceling or going to groups. the clinic offers that. they want us to get clean. they wany to help us so that we can stand our own two feet. they dont want us there forever like some like to think they do....the goal is to get take homes so that you do not have to come in everyday......you come in every day so that they can monitor you and make sure you are getting stonger and healthier.....and once you get take homes, that doesnt mean that you are going to stay on it forever either.....i just infuriates me how so many people are so judgmental yet they have no freaking clue as to what actaully goes on inside a methadone clinic...they just listen to what everyone else says and believe it....well, not everyone who is on methadone is abusing the system...not everyone on methadone thinks they need it forever.....i think it saved my life. i guess one other thing i need to work on is being happy because of me and who i am, not because of what other people think........

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by thephdtobe, Oct 19, 2010
Methadone is a truly incredible medication.  Obviously Pain and Rehab specialists and patients are aware of it, yet somehow it carries a negative image, mainly among those who are uneducated as to how it works and what it can do.  I've been on Methadone for quite sometime now.  I am on an extremely low dose at this point.  Superficially I can tell you that for those of us who need it, it is a miracle.  The long list of familiar opiates (percocet,oxy, vicodin, darvocet, etc....) are band-aids for short term pain (Oxy is also used for Chronic pain, but far more dangerous than methadone).  The first time you take them you experience pain relief and euphoria, but quickly become accustomed to them.  As time goes on you need more and more to achieve relief.  This is not the case with methadone.  For those of us who need it, it's like Tylenol for chronic pain (except that it works).  The comparison to Tylenol holds true in that there are no residual benefits, no high, no euphoria.  I owe the quality of life to methadone.  Without methadone I need a cane to walk, with it I can run a 5 minute mile.  While my reason for using it is much different than yours, I understand how you feel.  The few friends that know I take it generally first ask when I will get off it, rather than if it is helping me.  I don't know that I'll ever get off of it.  The point is that when used properly it can greatly enhance the quality of life.  You should be a happy because of who you are, and because of the efforts you have made, and the strides you continue to make. You are no longer abusing your body by abusing drugs, rather you are taking an extremely effective and safe medication to treat your illness.  The only people who need to know about the methadone are those who you decide to share it with, and those who cannot accept it, or view you negatively, are superfluous, and not worth your time.  Then there are those who are just concerned and don't understand in which case you can educate them, or tell them to research it themselves.  You continue to do what works for you.  Methadone has redeemed my youth, and it sounds as though it has been a vital part of your recovery.  Remember that the best place to search for support is amongst those who can empathize, and nobody empathizes better than someone who has had similar experience.  I applaud your efforts to stay clean, and even your mindset that methadone is a stepping stone.  I urge you to go at your own pace as long as you are moving forward in life.  Do not rush off of the medication because of a lack of support or understanding by outsiders.  Rather if you are to get off of it let it be because you and your prescribing doctor agree that the time is right.  Keep moving forward, stay positive, and don't worry about the thoughtless words of the naive for they know not what they say :-)

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by irisherin143, Oct 19, 2010
I am not saying that Methadone is a bad drug and that it doesnt help people. Because yes It did help me for 6 years. However, I am struggling with my fiance who is on Methadone and occasionally abuses it with either Zanex, Clonopin or Catapres! It really hurts because I feel that I want more in life for my fiance then he wants for himself! Methadone does do wonders and It workd but it saddens me when people get on Methadone to quit using Opiates only to resort to another habbit and that habbit is the benzos! Methadone is a life saver but u have to do it right and want to do it right! I am proud to say that Yes Methadone does Work if u Work IT! <3 Erin

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by Darkul, Oct 22, 2010
Methadone does not work, plain and simple. There are many facts that back this up that you are choosing to ignore. Less than half of the patients admitted to the program actually stay clean from drugs, and the 1 year retention rate is far worse. Furthermore, methadone is oftentimes sold on the streets for profit, and contributes to tens of thousands of deaths each year. What is worse, many clinics are funded by the Health Department at the expense of the taxpayer - i.e "free clinics". It is not my job to pay for another person's reckless lifestyle. Also, many times the nurses do not check the security of the lock bags, and it presents a risk to little children as it looks like red kool-aid, but it is deadly. Now, there are better, more efficient ways of dealing with opiate withdrawal, such as suboxone. It is only a matter a time before this demon drug, which was invented by the Nazis (look it up) and keeps it "patients" in bondage is outlawed for good. Nothing you can do or say will stop it. So you enjoy the nose itching and the nodding and that warm feeling in the stomach as it is "going to work", because those days are numbered. Good day!

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by Darkul, Oct 22, 2010
Let me also add that the Irish girl is right. Benzodiazipenes mixed with Methadone is a big problem in our society. Most deaths from Methadone come from this lethal cocktail. It supposedly works with the Methadone to produce more doppemine in the brain, and hence the "euphoric" feeling. Only problem, is it kills you. Methadone destroys lifes. I was on because of an addiction to prescription pain killers, and found myself on far worse. Methadone is hell. It turns you into a vampire that must feed daily - I could not even leave town. The psychological addiction is just as bad, as the patient looks forward to the warm, cozy feeling that Methadone provides. It is a false security, however. Methadone destroyed my life. It took a 25 year old male "knock out", and turned me into a shell of my former self. It causes weight gain, tooth decay, impotency in men...It uterly destroys.

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by pauls99, Aug 30, 2011
In response to your liking methadone. I promise that taper you think will be so easy...will be a very long and uncomfortable process!! The longer you are on it,the longer you will stay on methadone. Hopefully you remained at a low and reasonable dose or I promise you will be in for a long haul. If your on methadone you also have all the issues the article above states but you will also run into medical proffesionals who will never treat you as anything but an addict and pill seeker no matter how honest you are to them. I'm gonna tell you my current situation I am going through at the moment. I suffer from chronic pain due to spinal stenosis in both my neck and back. I have dealt with my back pain for almost three years now and my neck  started yrs back but recently have severe pain in neck. Had an MRI and stenosis is worse with 5 bulging disks in my neck. I also have spurring and ridging from arthritis. I went to emergency room about 4 weeks ago and was givin medication of 5mg valum and percocet. My Doctor who I see for lower back injections also suggested nurotin for nerve pain. I'm having the severe fire burning and numbness tingling in my right arm. I also have severe pain in my scapula area of my back. So after originally waiting 5 days to go to ER,I then waited another 5 days to follow up with my PCP. When originally going to his office I brought all my meds with me to the visit. As a side note I was given 10 valum and 24 percocet 5 days earlier. While in his office we discussed needing the MRI and needing to se a nuerosurgeon possibly. So after that disscusion he said goodbye! I sat there for a second dumbfounded,anyone who knew me could tell the severity of my pain and this doc wasn't going to do anything! I had already explained my pain was worsening and was at my witts end. I explained I'd rather drive my truck into a tree rather than go on like this. He said you can't take pain meds with methadone.I needed to increase dose. I told him to call the clinic I attend and speak with the doctor. I didnt want to increase my dose by 30mgs hoping that would work. Plus the doctor at clinic will not treat you for pain there anyway.They also don't know what dose will help,each person is differen't.Nevermind the problems decreasing that 30mgs. It could take a year if not more. So after speaking with the doctor at the clinic he wrote a script for 40mg oxycontin. While he was talking with doc I went for an MRI. Also while in his office I expressed a concern of maybe a torn muscle in my back or something. I am having pain in neck but its now been almost a month and not getting any better,infact would swear it's getting worse. Going back a few days I called his office after about a week asking for another appointment. His practice is connected with a mental health office I go to,so it was at the urging of my psycologist I called for appointment. I was going to wait another 2 weeks but as I said I havve very little use of my right arm(am right handed) and pain was still horrible. The pain meds helped some but nowhere near perfect. I also had a concern about my shoulder/back area pain. I've been trying so hard to massage area to relieve pain. I've had some PT but not much better,atleast not any lenth of time. Also my PT suggested making another appointment with PCP.So I had another appointment set up for about a week ago but 1 day before my visit I got a call from the NP from his office.I was asked the reason for my visit and didn't even get out my neck and back aren't,when she abruptly responded "we are not giving out anymore pain meds"!! "You need to go to pain management and nuerosurgeon" I said thats fine but what am I going to do in the mean time plus I have some and was cut off again. She said we will give you some names of doctors to call. Now everyone knows you need a referal and that takes time. Also a specialist needs a referal. It is now about a week later and still no appointment for either. Yet my meds are done today. Now when I brought my meds to him I had 11 of the 24 percocet left and 3 valum of ten Per prescription both could have been gone. With my Oxycontin I have 3 days left. So I clearly haven't abused them!! In fact try to tolerate pain as much as possible. I have severe spasms in my back and also noticed severe swelling and what looks like bruising around the area. It looks like I have 304 masses in area. Plus my arm and hand is killing me.He will not even prescribe me flxeril which I desperately need for spasming. Ofcourse now my lower back is acting up because of the issue with my neck . I have to lean my head to the left for some relief.The doc wont see me,even for other medical issues. My Mental health staff have tried to intervien but no help!1 Also I have followed all clinic rules and have 6 takehomes. The only dirty urine was my original 2 plus years ago. But I can't get this doctor to help me one bit!! Yet he is saying we aren't treating any different!!LOL LOL LOL!!! This is what methadone does to your character!!I was 100% honest and up front. Involved all aspects of my treatment doctors. I have more protection in place,nevermind not being able to get high. I have chronic pain bbecause of stenosis,probably will have neck operated on first then hopefully get back figured out. My neck is worse but because of WC my back problems are a fight for sugery.But this doc has left me in a more serious situation than prescribing meds for a few weeks. With everyone notified and aware of what is going on,the clinic can ck your meds anytime and I told him he could also. I even said give me a week at a time. I had a problem and never want that again!! That is why I have been so honest! Methadone is disgusting with alot of issues getting off it!! Try not taking for a couple days and get to 5 days then let us know how great it is!! There is so much abuse by clinics,they will raise you to the moon but fight you tooth and nail to come down before 9 months.WHY?? they know your body is hooked and your worse off than before you started. I won't even get into how your treated at the clinic.Im only on 47mgs but luckily smart enough early on to drop from 110 but had to fight tooth and nail to do so. After being so sedated I couldnt function!1 Yet I was runnung my own program. The doc wanted to detox me for non compliance.Even said I was a freak and needed to be studied by BRown University!! I asked about doing blood work and he played dumb..asked for what?/ I said to see how metabolising in my body/ He said "it's not for that" Yet he ordered it and discovered mine is rarely slow!! Did anyone say SORRY?? NO!! This is why methadone should be banned!! Addiction needs to be treated mentally and behaviorly. Not give you an addiction to another med which you become addicted to,even if they say your not. I asked a Nurse at clinic who told me its not addicting,your dependant on it. I LOL!!Just a nicer word. I then suggested she probably didnt even have any addiction experience,it then came out her son did. But ofcourse she didn't send him to a clinic.Which tells you all you need to know!! I had an issue for months at most and will face yrs getting away from methadone. Does it make sense you can stay away from drugs for over 2 yrs but yet have to face the detox issues now?? atleast during problem you can kick yourself and understand its your fault. Not do everything right and be clean for years only to go backwards!! The longer your on it,the worse it is .Plus methadone only has a 10% success rate and the longer your on the less likely!! GOOD LUCK!!

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by lisfranc, Aug 31, 2011
DRs dont like when you have an attitude,or seem to profess to know more than they do,after , im sorry how many years of medical training did you say you had.Calm down,take a softer approch,or you will be the one getting banned

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