Surgery's Over!!

The damned surgery's over with and i can't say how glad I am that I actually listened to dh (for once!) and took his advice.  It was pretty painful but I trudged through it.  Noah goes for his 4 month appt tomorrow - am looking forward to seeing how much he weighs, the check-up, etc.  I was re-reading some of my old journal entries and they make me kinda sad.  It seems to me that all I did was whine and ***** about being tired - gosh that sure gets old.  Now there have been several women in my circle who've lost babies through early & late miscarriages and one had a stillborn.  That night i took No-No out of his crib and held him for about three hours straight trying to imprint his little body onto mine.  It has finally occurred to me that he won't be this size much longer - with having older children, you would've thought I'd have gotten this fact straight sooner rather than later.  Actually I knew that but hearing and grieving about these losses.......I wrote about this in No-No's blog on babysites - made me feel better.

My weight gain or rather loss - I've lost 5 pounds which I'm so happy about but have many more to go.  Just cutting back on portions has helped so much plus cutting out some starches makes me not feel so tired - does that even make any sense?  I hope to continue this road - my dh tells me that weight taken off slowly is more likely to stay off than rapid weight loss.  I'd love to just go gangbusters but that damned common sense says he may be right......