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i am surviving...

Jan 10, 2008 10:13AM - 2 comments
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i had to go into the hostpital on tuesday. i have been feeling alot of pain in my ovaries. turns out that my ovary has twisted and i need surgery. i have managed not to take anything for the pain. (anything narcodic)...i was open with the doctors and told them about my addictions. i want to stay sober more than i want to get high. that is the truth. i have had sobriety and i have been in active addiction...i am choosing to stay clean because i know what it has to offer.

i helped my boyfriend get into a rehab. he waited 3 weeks for a bed. he stayed clean and went to meetings with me. i missed him so much. we were both clean and very involved with our meetings when we met. now we have both had our own awakenings and it makes me happy that he decided to get help for himself. no one forced him. he realized he needed to go for his own recovery because he was having a difficult time coping out here.

i am focusing on me and getting my own life in order. now he has made the choice to do the same. it gives me hope for our future. we have beautiful twins and they love him so much. things just keep getting better the more i stay clear of the people and substances that are dangerous to me.

thank you to those who have supported me and the rest of you who are just here when i need to read about someone elses struggles to evaluate my own!

Take care-
mE

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by CodeineGirl78, Jan 13, 2008 08:35AM
I appreciate the words of support!  It is always nice to have someone else going through something hard along with you....it helps so much.  I am starting a quick taper so I am on my way to being pill free...it's hard to imagine life without them but it has to be better than life is now.  Hang in there and I am here if you need to talk or vent as well...

CG78

by OnetiredMom, Jan 17, 2008 12:55AM
Congrats to you and being clean. Also the refusal of pain meds. Being open with the doctor is great. That is wonderful. You are on the right track and it's wonderful. Thank goodness your boyfriend also is ready too.I know how hard it is to try to stay clean when the one you love is also an addict. The most beautiful thing you can do is become clean together. Good luck... You have a new, most wonderful life ahead of you. It's because of you and your strength and desire to want more. More for you,him, and your twins. :-)
Stay far, far away from those that are not wanting to change. That was my 1st mistake. An addict is miserable and when people around them choose to be clean they come to temp. I failed it but am working my way back. They say misery loves company but I don't if that is the only company I can get. The ones handing out their little pills. They can stay far far away from me.   Good luck to you and your boyfriend. And those beautiful twins u speak of.. :)

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