Dec 22, 2010
Oh my gosh does that song fit my life at this moment. I am sorry I have not been able to write each of you back and I have to be honest I do read what everyone writes but I am so tired and at the same time dealing with way too much. I did Kick both my Pill Popping Sisters out of the house..they both pop pills to get high and they take so much there eyes roll..
Those of you who know who I am know I kicked Methadone which I took for Pain and Never have I done something like them. And at this time Everyone in my home does not need to have Pill popping ******** at my house. My 14 year old Son does not need to see his Aunts deal with life that way. It hurts to kick them out, trust me..both my parents are gone, one sister has passed away. And the 2 I have left well, what Can I say they run from life and I have Ideas why they do but for real, Popping Pills and getting so Messed up you can't see ...you have no Idea what you are doing..Well I had to do what I did..
Life is F up write now..I get told I am stage 5 Cancer , You see I was at first told the plan of staying on Interferon for 5 years to keep me Cancer free for 5 years. Well My husband and I went to a few other doctors and because of how sick it made me we went with the risk of going off the Interferon and hopes that it would not come back so soon. So 8 months after I got off here I stand, I have it again. This time they can't take it out of my body, it is on my Main Artier (spelling) from my heart and you can't mess with that. So we will try another Chemo and try to buy some time for me. As I said my last Child at home is 14 almost 15 and I want to sick around for him. My 2 oldest Children will have nothing to do with me, it makes you think wow what did she do to those kids to make them be that way. That is how I would think..Well to be honest with you, I have no idea..I sure was not raised that way. And its hard to think they came from me. Oh and by the way this is my safe place to vent so Vent I will...
I have a Grand Baby I can't see, my daughter just gave Birth to on Dec. 7 and it kills me...oh I know there has been allot of people that say, they will come around...they are just scared and blah blah blah
Well I don't get them, Sorry that Blah Blah Blah does not get it with me.
Well I'm tired now..Been Crying all Morning and my eyes hurt so I'm going to go lay down. Watch something that is happy...
Thank You all for being there and comments back.
I swear Soon I will be able to write you all back...God Bless and thanks for writing me
xoxox ME, Rhea