pretty good

ended up getting to sleep without too much drama. the cat is sitting on my lap now, expressing love. that makes me feel good.

yeah, it was pretty late, spoke to sasha till like 3am, that helped me sleep I think.

my french mum just made me a coffee and brought it out to me whilst I was smoking. I love her, I love this family, couldnt have been luckier.

spoke with aus family this morning, and friends. all good. dad broke down on the phone to me about work again. its really really sad. he is THE hardest worker in the world, and its not appreciated. hes going to get fired (resign, i assume) again.

i really hope the ***** who has ****** him over has a terrible christmas, and im not a spiteful person. e.g. people who bashed me, have a happy christmas.

i only have a couple of concerns, yesterday was terrible, until my mind went into self defense mode. i thought our conversation later was really good, maybe not though. i cant read her at the moment, not going to try. i thought she was pretty insensitive/rude/complacent/something about the christmas thing i did for her. oh well, God`s will. she didnt call like she said she would. not too fussed, ill call tomorrow probably.

gotta remember to take meds!

hope i cope well today, i think i will, somewhat suprisingly.

happy christmas.