Jan 27, 2011
Well I am starting to see a little better what is a head of me, I think your own mind won't let you see what is all a head of you at one time, it is too much to let inside your mind at one time. So you take care of yourself by letting in parts of what is a head of you. I have had to be strong at time's when I did not want to be, I have wanted to cry when someone else Needed to Cry. So I did not Cry I let You Cry. Now I stand here Looking at my Self and seeing what is a head of me..what I may and may not get in the matter of time. If the New Drugs the FDA is Yet to Give there OK on maybe one of them will Take my Cancer away. Maybe with the Trial Drug I am on, Maybe I can Help Someone that has Melanoma in some way. I know that Everyday is Closer to that Year..I know if nothing has changed with my Cancer when they Scan me that I will have to make up my mind weather I keep on this Drug Or go off it and try another and ware we go from there. I have told myself that I will try each drug and I will fight away all the Side effects Just so I can Make it to be with My Son who will be 15 this Feb. 27 and if I can make it to when he graduates then I am One Blessed Women Trust me I will be Great full!!
So I have pretty much started to have some what of a Routine back down , We still have another family living with us, but we have laid down some rules with the wash which has helped and then I finally feel better and I have started to do things again. My Husband has a Job up and coming and so that is the reason I don't have a Full Routine but he helps me so much and to be honest with you I miss him a ton when he is gone.
So that is ware I am at today.
I'm Okay..I'm doing pretty Good I am living each day strong. I have My Own Girly Room and I have time to Paint and I have time to be ALONE and I have MEDITATION TIME and I have a Loving Family and Friends.
What More Could a Person really Ask for? So besides all that what does a person Really Need...
Thank You for Reading and God Bless
Live Each Day to the Fullest...xoxox Rhea