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Jan 29, 2011 - 7 comments
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Hello Everyone,

I know we have heard that Saying So Many Many Times...but here I am going to Use it again, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the last. But Day By Day is how I take life Now. It is kind of different when you think to your self I could be Ill in 6 months Shoot for that Matter a Month from Now. I know How Life Spins on a dime now. I get it..Sorry it took me so long to figure that one out...Boy did it take me for ever to figure that out. And at times it seems Unreal to think I'm dieing..Oh Yes I am Praying that this Chemo will stop the Growth of  the Cancer in me, that I will get a Couple of x ter Years..Who think's your ever going to have to think this way? that is why it is easy to fall or slip back into thinking this is Not Real this is something I Just thought up. For real I can't tell you how many times I have asked my husband is it true that I'm Stage 4 and that I'm dieing and what did the doctor say about this that or the other thing.  You really can't take it all in.

But what does this all mean? It means to be Real in life, be yourself
it means I'm not going to Pretend to No one any more. You either Like me or you don't...I am going to Start walking again come spring and I will get Fit..
There is So Much More to Life then the Size of Pants I ware or what I do for a Living or how does your house look or what Kind of Car do  you Drive??

Oh don't take me wrong I do like Nice things and such but I am doing some of those things that I thought I would have forever to do. And I'm going threw Boxes that Need to gone threw. Not left for others to go threw for me. I want to get a Few CD"s Made for my Only Grand Child...

I want to live each day..I do live each day I have begun to be able to let go of the Anger I have had I have let go of the Emotional Hurt I have had the feelings that have kept coming up on me, the feelings I did not know what to do with , Well Some of them I still don't know what to do with them but others I have put them in there place others I feel like when the time comes I will deal with those feels .'
I really want to Spend my time sharing my love and giving of my love. Something I have been very scared to do for Many years...for real...I don't want to be hurt and I got to the point to ware I just wanted to hang alone. And now I want to spend my time with the People I love and I want to have More Dinner Or BB!Q's with them...

OH Day By Day I will Live and there will be planning along the way..

Thank You So much all of you..Big Hug Rhea xoxo

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by Amicque, Jan 29, 2011
I realized how life is short when Roy died all those little things that worried me and I thought I would die over just didn't seem to matter. I still feel that way little things like I didn't get the car cleaned out and I should do this or that, well no big the world isn't going to come to a halt because my car isn't clean.

For me I have to keep the one's I love close to my heart and the one's who are toxic I stay away from because it's not good for me. I know sounds a tad selfish but I'm at a stage in my life where I don't want to waste my time in anger an flusteration I want to love an laugh an be happy. Even if it is just sitting in my garden enjoying the flowers an the sun on my back warming me up from Winter's coldness. It's the peaceful small things that please me the most, laughing with my family around the kitchen table and watching everyone enjoying themselves from the food I cooked. Or the look on someone's face when they open a gift I have given them.

I don't know what everything means in life some things I will never know what they mean but it's living in the now that I have to do and whatever is happening at the time I try to enjoy it....I'm sure you feel the same way Rhea we've shared a lot of laughs lol so much that I have almost peed myself from them..and I'm sure we will have many more...xoxoxox Ams

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by margypops, Jan 29, 2011
I agree with you Rhea its the only way, a day at a time , take it as it comes,  I find taking that step back when I have a dilemma , not always an easy task but it does make us feel better . well you have your sis here with you now so thats  a good thing ..good luck to you both ...marg

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by ladyrhea4, Jan 29, 2011
Amber I think You are Right as I have let go of things I have felt much better and I picked back up a few but that is fine it does make me feel better to have certain things done and to let other things go. As You know rather then getting on the Computer all the time I have Spent time Getting to know myself better, Learning what I do believe and doing things that I want to do some Painting of sorts..

But I also Can tell you that I am most happy as you said with everyone eating and watching everyone have a good time. I enjoy the little things of life. I still need to let go of some things but I will in time
I love You Amber and Yes we have both Almost Pee "d are Pants together..

Love You Dear xoxox ME

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by mikescar, Jan 30, 2011
well ladies, I hope the best for all of you, and hope that you enjoy every day to the fullest, my thoughts and prayers will be with you, and like you rhea, I don't sweat the little things either, i never have and life is so much easier that way, if you need anything just call on me and I will do all to help, have a wonderful day, Mike

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by crackerjack4u2, Jan 31, 2011
Amen Rhea, sounds like you have a wonderful plan Hun, Day By Day is how I also live.  Today is all we have because tomorrow is not promised to any of us.  When tomorrow arrives it is in fact Today again.  So I by choice will spend Today being happy and being with those that I love and care for. I will smile at the strangers I meet and hold close to my heart my friends and family.  I will not sweat the little, less important things in life like is the house a little messy. Instead I will say come on in to my home, you are welcome here anytime. Whether I have one Today or Many Today's remaining only God can answer, but I am planning on having the very best Today I can have, and I'm so glad I have a friend like you in it. May You Have A Very Happy Today Rhea and Many More Today's To Come.   You are in My Prayers.   God Bless Brenda  

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by ladyrhea4, Feb 02, 2011
Mikescar
Do we know each other? You told me to Call you any time. Thank You for your note it is always Nice to come over to look at what I wrote it is Up lifting to read. Thank You SO Much
Rhea xoxox

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by ladyrhea4, Feb 02, 2011
Crackerjack4u2
Well thank you and thank you for Reminding me that each day is what we have. I wrote it but at times we forget that. Gosh darn it is hard sometimes to keep your Faith Going..And Keep your self at Taking In each day... One Day at a Time...

Thanks Crackerjack4u2
XOXO Rhea

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