I went to my doctor yesterday...i could proudly tell him that i was 45 days no suboxone and no relapses... he was quite impressed...but he always knew i could do it.
I told him the Mood stabilizer (Aurorix) he gave me a few months ago was making me very aggressive and agitated...I found myself getting so angry that i was punching walls so I'm off that now. So now the only medication I'm taking is Xanax if and when i need it....no mood stabilizers...no antidepressants... and of course no suboxone. Even today having not taken Aurorix (or my afternoon dose yesterday) i feel in a better mood...odd i know...but they definitely not for me.
In my previous visit to him he mentioned that he thought i might have ADD...this visit after telling him the affects of the mood stabilizers, he's referred me to an ADD/ADHD specialist to assess me....unfortunately i couldn't get an appointment til March 24th (day after my birthday :P) so i think it will be interesting to see how i am without any mood altering medication til my appointment and to see how i function with studying. Speaking of studying...my doctor thought it best that i only take on one course this year so i won't be studying Mental health, just Alcohol and other drugs. But the AOD course incorporates a certain amount of mental health work into it anyway, because as most of us know people with AOD issues often have mental health problems too. I start study on the 21st of February and it's only two and a half days on campus, although there will be alot of "at home" study.
Glory or insanity awaits!