Feb 10, 2011
I am a 24 year old Female. I have been taking pain pills for 2 years. I got addicted slowly and then one day I just didnt feel normal without them. I wish I had never taken than first pill. Anyhoo, I dont want to go on a big Pitty potty and say how hard it is and how scared I am every morning of my life. But it sure as hell ISNT FUN. I wake up, if I even fell asleep, wondering where my next fix is going to come from. I dread waking in the morning having to face a day without pain meds. I hate how much of my life has been taken over by this.
About 2 weeks ago I finaly got the courage to go to the Doctor for help and She said she wasnt equipped to handle it. That I would have to go to a pain treatment center. Which DONT accept medical insurance and are $500 + dollars for a first visit. I support my disabled mother on one full time income. I dont have that kind of money! Its almost a slap in the face how hard it is to get help.
Anyway, I downloaded that Tracker thing to use. If I have pills I normally take 30-100mg of pain medecine a day. It doesnt matter what. What ever I can find. Vicodin, percocet, Oxycontin, methadone. Ive tried them all and more.
On my tracker I Noted USE PER DAY in how many 5 MG pills I took. Ok, enough for now, Need to get back to work.