Apr 11, 2011
I have spent the last few evenings reading a great deal of posts regarding people that are very unhappy for ever getting on methadone. I feel bad for these people who have suffered because of it but for me it has turned my life around.
I have had an attraction to painkillers of every type for most of my life. The 8 years I spent before getting on MMT was horrible. The first few years on them weren't too bad but as my tolerance went up I found it more and more difficult to find or afford the drugs it took to keep me from getting sick with w/d's. My life was a roller coaster ride of having pills for a week or two (no longer really high but at least able to function) and then having nothing and being so sick that it was all I could do to just prepare a meal for my family. "Mom is sick again." gets really old. I was miserable.
I finally decided to try methadone and I feel like a normal person again. I am no longer sick, depressed and miserable. I have extra money to spend on other things in life besides pills. I am now doing things I have been unable to do for years like art, baking, gardening, ect. I am wanting to go back to work or even possibly go back to school. These are things that seemed a million miles away before I was on methadone. For me it has totally changed my life for the positive. The only small problem I have found is that I am gaining a little weight but am increasing my exercise and improving my diet to eliminate this problem. I would rather be a little bigger than spending my days the way they were before, anyday.
I feel badly for the people that have suffered due to methadone. I am grateful that I am not going thru any of these bad experiences.