May 06, 2011
I'm sorry I'm pushing you away, Mom. Please understand it's hard for me to trust again. I know I promised I wouldn't hurt myself again... I feel awful breaking it. It's the only way for me to forget all those bad memories.. but when you said the words "I'm leaving you and your father. I'm tired of your **** now"... I couldn't handle myself. I wonder how you would feel and react when you see the scars & marks I added. I don't know how to stop, Mommy.
Just please don't give up on me.