My thoughts today

Still battleing with this detox notion i have. I want off the pills so badly and have in the past gotten down to 1 ...50 mg pill a day. Then .. got mad at my husband for some stupid stuff... and popped a few ultram and 2 vicoprofen and flew around the house on my broom.  I realize that i use my pills for getting over personal problems. and they seem to help me cope. somehow i amgonna have to cope alone. without them.i dont even get high off the ultrams and vicoprofen anymore. vicoden do absolutely notheing for me. percocet now.. i love the high off of those... but that is not what i am here for. i am here to get myself in order and find out hwo to get myself off these evil demon pills before they kill me.

another day ... sighs...