May 23, 2011
Some of you might know. Others probably have no clue. Well I disapeared from the online world. Havent been on this site in ages. Not even sure when I was last here. Things have been crazy. I dont even know anymore. Just feel so lost and defeated by everything. Feels like everything passed me by. Been in a daze. I cant even remember why I left or what made me. I only know it was my mental health. Totally out of wack. I know people who know me might have a lot of questions but I dont know the answers. I cant explain why or where. I was just there I guess out of it. I feel awkward and embarrassed. Looking down. Just dont know. Im back for now. Ill just say my mental health got really bad. And I cant even get help. I needed it then but no insurance. I guess Im sorta ok. Im able to be here and make posts and Im writing this journal. I feel like I come and go. Maybe a nervous breakdown. Just scared over this and everything. So Ill try to be here agian. But I dont know. Cant garentee Ill be here all the time. Could be gone agian and come back. Who knows. All I know is I disapeared. But for now Im here. Back.