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Starting Subutex today and really nervous

Jun 16, 2011 - 0 comments
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August of 2010 I was attacked from behind when I was walking to my car, I received multiple injuries including a broken nose,broke jaw in two places, and torn tendon in my hand. I was hospitalized for two days and had surgery on my jaw to wire it shut. I was presribed Loratab elixir(liquid form) because I could not swallow pills. The following Friday from being released I was laying in bed and started to get a weird sharp pain in my left side, I started to freak out and the pain got worse and I could barely breath. My gf called the ambulance and I was taken to the hospital I had developed pnuemonia because of the bacteria build up resulting from my broken jaw and me not being active. I spent 15 days in the hospital ans the pneumonia transfered to both lungs. While in the hospital I was getting Dilaudid every 4-6 hrs(but I made sure it was every 4hrs on the dot) as needed for pain. After a few days of round the clock pain and round the clock pain meds I took advantage of it and was literally watching the clock for my next dose. Dilaudid is no joke it shocks me that everytime I asked for it they gave it to me with no problem. After spending 15 days straight on this stuff a few times a day I felt I needed it to be well normal. Once I got out I didn't have Dilaudid but I sure did have my liquid loratab and I would guzzle it down like water. Once my jaw healed the doctor wouldn't refill my script anymore, so there I was trying to figure out a way to get more pain meds. So I thought hey might as well get my surgery done on my hand that'll guarantee me some pills for awhile. Sure enough I had the surgery and was prescribed 10/325 norcos(because I was already tolerant to the 5/325) they sent me home with 20. To be honest my hand hurt for about a week that's it. That first wk I would take one in the morning one in the afternoon and sometimes one at night to sleep. Then I started taking 2 at once just to get that Ultimate feeling of greatness. I would call my doctor office one a week for a refill and sure enough the would call it in for me without any issues. After about 7 refills in less than 2 months they said "do not call anymjore we will not give you anymore refills".  So now what do I do? I'm already dependent on the norcos by now and my doctor won't give me a refill. So I went to my parents house for help, no not help from them, I went to find pills. Sure enough I found a bottle of my moms 5/325 vicodin I took it w/o even hesitating. Well those ran out within two days so I started asking around using my injuries as an excuse and ppl believed that's what it was for. It is now 10months later and I have spent so much on pills I can't even remember it is well over a few thousand $$. I have tried oxycontins,morphine pills, tramadol. I quit my job two months ago in order to have more time to get high. I spent the savings bonds my father bought for me when I was born. I am 21yrs old btw. A normal dose for me is 8-11 10/325 norcos at one time most ppl can take half a pill and can barely function. I can take that many pills and go and have a conversasion with anybody and they wouldn't even notice I was high. I have lost most of my friends because id rather stay home alone and get ****** up then be with anyone. I am in fear of what my liver looks like bcuz of all the tylenol I have taken in the past 10months. I realized I have a problem and I have been researching suboxone treatments but I have found so many mixed reviews I don't know what to believe. I found one place and called and they wouldn't let me speak to a doctor all they said was bring $180 and ill be good I definately don't wanna go there. So I found a place called soft landing recovery and went there today, I am nervous about this whole thing and unsure I felt really rushed when I went there as if they just turn and burn ya. Within 10mins of being there the doctor gave me a script for Subutex and pretty much sent me on my way. I was wondering if anyone has taken subutex and has any advice or how long it takes. Thank you

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