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Sep 24, 2008 - 0 comments
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For the first time in a LLLONG time, I feel good. I can still feel the depression, but I can actually FEEL something. I have been numbed for so long on the wrong meds, that it feels good to feel emotions.
My son is 9 now, and for most of his life, I have been in some state of Super Mom or Out There Mom. This past weekend, we were able to go to a neat hometown "Mayberry-ish" event and as we walked down the street looking at crafts, cars, etc., he grabbed my hand and hugged my arm so hard. He looked up at me and told me, "I love you so much Mommy, thank you for taking me to this today." It's good to see him not worry - just be glad that I am his Mommy.
We have more fun these days - we do things together - I am not always trying to escape my day, and I am so grateful. I know it won't always be a good day, but at least I am not numb and can feel the ups and downs, and hopefully, I will continue to get better with my therapist and pdocs help, my friends/family, and the help of those friends on this site.
Who woulda thunk it?
My son is 9 now, and for most of his life, I have been in some state of Super Mom or Out There Mom. This past weekend, we were able to go to a neat hometown "Mayberry-ish" event and as we walked down the street looking at crafts, cars, etc., he grabbed my hand and hugged my arm so hard. He looked up at me and told me, "I love you so much Mommy, thank you for taking me to this today." It's good to see him not worry - just be glad that I am his Mommy.
We have more fun these days - we do things together - I am not always trying to escape my day, and I am so grateful. I know it won't always be a good day, but at least I am not numb and can feel the ups and downs, and hopefully, I will continue to get better with my therapist and pdocs help, my friends/family, and the help of those friends on this site.
Who woulda thunk it?
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