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Oct 07, 2011 - 5 comments

I am about at an entire day clean. This is probably the millionith time I have tried. I just can never seem to get it. I always find myself back to day one with the struggles and withdrawl point. God, I just need to go home and get some sleep. I can't make it with the whole job thing. I need an upper to keep me awake. What scares me the most is I honestly do not know if I really am ready deel down inside to stay clean. I hope I aml. I want to be. But don't know how to do things different. especially when I work swing when all the town meetings are. Good news is, I am not craving bad right now.

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by drifter0213, Oct 08, 2011
don't look back ok

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by sandiemas623, Oct 08, 2011
Keep positive.  You can do it if you really are ready!  Think of how much better you will feel and be when the detox is over.  Such a relief coming your way.  Good Luck!


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by ricart70, Oct 08, 2011
Hang in there man.I have been wodering how you are.I also have depression and the working thing is almost impossible in withdrawal.Is there any way you could take off a few days?


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by ricart70, Oct 08, 2011
oops I am posting on the wrong person.Very sorry hang in there thougjh

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by Psychobillyqueen, Oct 08, 2011
Hello. My name is Leah. I have been on methadone for four years. I also had a pill addiction befor methadone. I am two days off methadone. It's crazy. The restless legs and arms. Tossing and turning at night. You have to really 100% want it. I have been fighting addiction my whole life and I can finally say I'm in a great state of mind to stay strong. Look at it like this. Every week will be better. One day? HUGE. Think about it after a few days. Do you really wanna go through all that withdrawal again? It ain't worth it. Pull through. Everytime I was going down on methadone I so wanted to go back up on my dose just to feel "normal" again. But it's not normal. Take a few days off work. Even if you can't? You have to. It's in your best interest. Restless legs? Go to a doctor and get a none narcotic pill. I am perscibed mirapex. It doesn't help me sleep but the tossing and turning is better. Trust me it will get better. And every day you are clean, pat yourself on the f*****g back cause that's huge. I have got alot into meditation and lucid dreaming just to keep me sane. Find something your really interested in and stick to it! Addiction is hard. But you can do it!

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