miscarriage

i've had 3 miscarriages and a healthy baby before the last miscarriage.

i got with my fiance in 2005 and got pregnant pretty quick (we wasnt trying for a baby it just happened) it was my first pregnancy and we were both over the moon, i was so happy i was going to be a mum.
during october 2005 I was about 4 months pregnant and after me and my partner had sex I noticed a pink discharge when I went to the toliet.
I started to get worried, I was in no pain.
The next day we went to the doctors and he told me to go for a scan in couple of days. Withing them couple of days I started feeling weired, like I was no longer pregnant.
I went for that scan and they told us the baby had died, weeks before but the scan carried on growing.
I had a DxC.
New years eve 2005 I found out I was pregnant again, I was so scared and yet again the same thing happened in feb 2006 m/c and DxC.
Then I few months passed I got pregnant again.
I was having nightmares I was in a mess and worried sick, but I chilled out and i knew every thing was fine, went for the scan in july 2006 and was told everything was fine J.
January this year 2007 I had a beautiful baby girl, we named her cariad. She’s now 8 months just gone.
Then again july this year I got caught again, eveything was going fine apart from I didn’t didn’t know if the baby was fine or not.
I went for a scan 30th august and there was a sac but no baby, the baby had died early on pregnancy.
I choose to go naturally, I was in so much pain and lost loads of blood
I had to have a scan 13th sep, they told me I still had some lefted in, so I have to go back in 2 weeks time.
I do want another baby but I think I should leave my body heal, it is so hard. i would have like'd cariad to have a brother or sister close to her. just wanted to know if any one has been though the same, and how did they cope.
I am just glad to have cariad with me. xxxxxx