Oct 25, 2011
I'm tired of people who dont get it! My in-laws, my aunts, most of my oncles, my neigbourgs and even I never met before tells me that I'm lazy not to go and have a job.
I mean I know that my in-laws dont approved that I dont work outside the house, or that when I work I only take a few hours a week. They have been telling it to my husband for years now. We told them that I'm sick and that working outside the house is to hard on me.
My mothers family don't see it either. But I learned to not mind there words a very long time ago. I always was the black sheep amongs my cousins.
But strangers! That was the drop that made everything go over board.
I have Chiari malformation, and a list of at least 25 symptomes that make me misarable most days!
Ah! yes strangers!
I was taken back today when I decided to go for a walk at the local health center, because it was raining very hard outside again. While I was quietly walking around the inside circuit two ladies passed me. They were elderly and they were walking much faster than me and they were talking and laughing loudly togeter. A few laps latter they past me again. And they stoped at the water bar to keep on talking. When I walk pass them they came to talk and walk with me.
They seem like nice ladies so when they started to talked to me, I answered. They were suprised to see me there in the morning and bla bla bla. So they asked me if I had a day of or if my shift work was latter today or where I was working. So I answered : no, no, and nowhere. Thats when they started to tell me that I was a shame, that young healty people should be working, that living as a state beneficery I should be ashamed. I told them that I was NOT a state beneficery, that my husband is working and that I am not working at the moment because I sick. They told me that I dont look sick, and they started to walk at there pace talking about people that fakes and how it make them mad.
I left the health center crying. I need to go to walk and loose some weight, but now I'm affraid of meeting more people like that or those two ladies again.
I'm tired of people like that. I don't fake. I would be working if I could. I have a bussy schedule even if I don't work outside the house!
I have two kids, a husband, a cat, a dog, and a house to take care of.
On Sunday : I teach sunday school at church for 1h, and then I accompaing my kids (and sit on the bleacher) to there Tea Kwon Do leson for two hours.
On Monday : I have to go with my youngest to her art leson for an hour.
On tuesday : I have to do the same with my eldest.
On wenesday : I have art class for myself (I need to be around people that love drawing as much as I do) with elderly people. And then my kids have there swiming leson for two hours.
On thursday : It's Tea Kwon Do for my kids again for two hours and then I have Tai Chi for two hours (my doctor told me to do a light workout beside walking).
On friday : Pool again.
On saturday : Nothing there but it's game board night with all the family.
Even on days where I think my head would split open I can't change that schedule, even if I feel weak and ready to faint I don't derogate...
I tried not long ago a part time job and I lost consciousness at work and I ended in the hospital for a week.
I wonder why people don't get it! My week as it now is sometime already to much for me!
I'm going to meet a Nurosurgeon in two days I wonder what he is going to tell me!
Thank you to have read my journal entry, I needed to vent, to rant.